I try to avoid caffeine. Not because of my health: I eat crap all the time. The only reason I don't eat bacon with every meal that back in '98 the various systems of my body rose up, defeated my brain, and made is sign the Live To See Fifty Peace Accord.
The real reason is that I don't need it. My baseline anxiety is so high that if you struck my shoulders in various places with a wooden mallet you would probably get a serious of sounds not unlike a steel drum. The result is an overabundance of nervous energy that is spent as follows
25% Worrying about things that I cannot control
25% Worrying about things I can control, but not actually dealing with them
20% Bouncing my legs up and down while seated
15% Letting my mouth just run while my higher brain sits there with a net to catch the worst of the crap my subconscious throws out
10% Walking very quickly
5% Running the essential systems of my body. (Respiratory, circulatory, etc.)
In Bloom
22 hours ago
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This made me laugh. And also miss you. Come visit Ithaca this summer -- all the hippies will force you to relax!
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